Conversation With My Laptop

Author Raja Krishnamoorthy / Kitty - Oct 01, 2024

My Laptop, in Conversation with me: 

“On Long breaks, LinkedIn postings and Life Journey!”  

As I sat in front of it, my laptop looked downcast and sad. Then it met my eyes and  asked, “How long will you inflict this pain on me?” 

I asked, “What pain? I didn’t realize that I’m inflicting any pain on you.” 

The laptop said, “You have not written any posts in more than two weeks. I feel so  sad. Just like your friends in LinkedIn, and Medium” 

“Oh, that’s the point you’re making, dear,” I said, looking at her lovingly. “Even I feel  a little sad that I have not done any posting for some days now.” 

The laptop asked, “Why?  

Is it because you’re not disciplined?  

Is it because you’re not dedicated?  

Is it because you’re not determined enough?  

Why did you not post for more than two weeks now?” 

I could empathise with her, my loving laptop. I replied, “Look, my friend, the way I  have understood my life, it can be summarized this way: 

  

‘Often things happen in life, and that is THE truth!  

It’s not always because there is a design, that things happen in life!  It is not always because there is a desire, that things happen in life!  It is not always because we deserve, that things happen in life.  A lot of times, maybe most of the time, things happen as they are  DESTINED”  

I had a big smile at the end of making the statement. 

My laptop lass gave me a frown, and asked: “Can you please explain this pompous  philosophy to me?” 

I responded, “My dear laptop, we’ve been together for quite some time now. I sit  with you most days and nights, even up to 11 or 11:30 PM, working, writing articles  and poems, making postings. You know how much I love writing. You know how  deeply I believe in the celebration of life, the conviction that we are all one world,  the joy of living life unlimited, the amazing beauty of living in awareness.” 

It said, “I know, I know. And I get a chance to experience this so much. Even more  reason why I’m feeling bad that you didn’t do any postings in the last two weeks!”

I looked at her very tenderly and said, “But this is the truth of life. We live in  multiple zones of reality. Not all situations are the same. But can you fully be  present in all those contexts, situations? that is my challenge” I paused.  

“I am listening” she nodded. 

“I travelled with my family group” I continued “nine of us—on a very beautiful  holiday from the 11th of September. That’s Just after I did my hundredth posting in  2024, in LinkedIn, and Medium, if you recall…” 

The laptop gleefully clapped her hands and said, “Yeah, yeah, yeah. That was  fantastic. You did one hundred postings this year by September 11th.” 

“So, this break was an awesome break,” I continued.  

“There were these beautiful moments being with nature in a way I had never  experienced before—the wilderness of Africa - in the flatlands of Masai Mara and  other places; the majesty of Mount Kilimanjaro; the presence and company of  amazing animal beings—wildlife—the flora and fauna; beautiful creatures—animals  and birds. All in scores, hundreds, together...It was a different world.” 

“I allowed myself to just soak in those experiences. During those hours of travel in  and while experiencing all this beauty, there were also very deep moments of  reflection and sheer admiration about creation.  

“May be a reminder...” 

“May be the clarity and clarion call...” 

  

“We Are All One World: WAAOW! Whatever be our form, whatever  be our shape- size, colour, texture...we are all ONE!”  

There was so much movement inside me—a melting inside—that I’m sure they are  all worth sharing and putting down in writing. And I’m sure I’ll do that.” 

“But over those ten days of travel,” I confessed, “most intense feeling was to  experience, to be with “IT”, to soak in “IT” ...the desire was just to be, with the  beings - animal beings, tree beings, water beings, sky being...being just a part of  it...inseparable from NATURE!” 

“And what is NATURE, now that you have been so close to it?” Sher asked  sincerely.

“The nature is the uncontaminated core state, uncontaminated beliefs and  behaviours of each entity!” I clarified. “There is the nature of air, of earth, of  plants, of flora, fauna...The animal nature manifesting in its natural environment,  we choose to call it the “law of jungle!” sometimes...” 

“Hmmm...! I see”  

  

“Once the lion has it’s stomach full, even a pack of 50 Antelopes or  Zebra’s or cattle does not interest the beast...However aggressive  and powerful it is!”  

“And what is man’s nature, If I may ask? “She asked softly.    

A wry smile came up on my face. “Man’s nature is Love. Divinity.  Acceptance. Collaboration. That is his core, his heart! But we are  more and more un-natural, competitive, aggressive and destructive  even as we remarkably progress with our intellect!  

  

The laptop smiled and said, “I hope you will eventually convert those experiences  into your shared postings.” 

“I hope to do so very soon,” I replied. 

“And then when did you return?” she asked. 

“I came back,” I explained, “and within the next few hours there was a medical  emergency for my brother. It was a very demanding situation. The next four days  just melted away attending to that emergency; its intensity did not even give me  time to sit and think about anything else.” 

The laptop said softly, “Oh, I understand now.” 

“Then,” I continued, “in the midst of all this chaos came a business trip to Delhi— very intense work for two and a half days—and then back home again checking up  on my brother’s health ...amidst repair work going on at home, totally taken care - single handedly- by Meena, my wife!” 

“Are you Okay? Did you sleep well? You did not even touch me for days together!”  she mockingly teased me.  

“I am getting back”, I assured. “So now I’m reorienting and reorganizing myself,” I  concluded. “And I’m very sure that soon—very soon—my writing and postings will  start again. I’ll be literally in touch with you so much.”

I smiled big, reassuringly. 

The laptop shyly smiled back and acknowledged ...” I was feeling lost. missed you so  much!” 

I caressed her gently and said, “Friend, this is the truth of my life.”    

“I’d rather be less successful but more present.  

less achievement-oriented but more alive a being.  

less numbers-driven but more human.”  

  

“The ‘Doing desire” is there, a fixation; We can call it many names— intention, goal, plan, purpose—but the Life journey is dynamic and  unfolding.”  

  

“By overemphasizing any one plan or purpose,” I added thoughtfully,  “we risk becoming merely a performing-delivery machines rather  than being lively, sensitive, collaborating human beings first.”  

“Can I hug you?” she asked. 

I held her tenderly in my hand. “Soon we’ll have new postings,” I promised. “You are my special big support, and that’s why,” I teased her, “I keep you on my lap  so often.” 

Blushing a bit, my laptop said, “Thank you, Raja. We’ll create together.” 

In awareness & Love  

Raja Krishnamoorthy  

1st Oct. 2024: 9 pm